Nobody to help my with my "heartache"

I think there can be few people in the world who had ever felt as I feel now.
If you don't belong to them, just imagine.
Imagine you're standing in front of someone. Close, you feel like there's no space between you.
You keep your head down, you're too much afraid of things which could happen when you would look in that person's eyes.
You're afraid of loosing.
Your heart beats fast, faster than ever before. It wants to kiss, to hug, just to feel...
But your brain... It's still working. (fucking brain) and it tells you to stop.
'Cuz part of you knows that it would be the worst thing in your life to lost friend in front of everyone.
You have to keep all of those boiling feelings inside you.
And walk away. With feeling what if...?.

I know you may think a lot of words, with no sense... Well I'm sorry I just had to.
I hope you feel better than me.

;)